Dear Julie

On leaving your office, on Friday, my feelings, complete euphoria, I walked through the city centre and could not stop smiling. I felt like I was honoured that something really special had happened to me and I wanted to share it. I felt so lucky to have been given such a good feeling. Received some strange looks from various people but this made me smile even more. I was on a high and everything looked brighter. Mean that literally not metaphorically.

 

As far as the smoking didn't even think about it for quite sometime and when I did, on the bus home, I looked at (my daughter), who was asleep in my arms and the thought soon went. It was strange, as I didn't want a cigarette so could not understand why I was thinking of them. That night I thought about what happened and how comfortable it had felt . . . Before meeting you I did not really believe in hypnotism but as you know I was desperate and willing to try anything once well twice. (My visit to another that did not work). After trying patches gum and sheer willpower I was left with little to try. That night I listened to your tape and fell asleep sometime during it. For the first time in ages I slept through the night and did not wake for the toilet. This meant I did not smoke throughout the night, as I would have normally done so. 
   
Yesterday (Saturday) I kept thinking of cigarettes and the hypnotism and found I could not remember much of what you said during that time. Is this normal? I remembered some things but wanted to remember more as it felt good to remember. I battled with myself as I kept repeating the words, I am a non smoker and will be for the rest of my life, they would not leave my head and I think it had an adverse affect as we were discussing and I kind of wanted one but didn't, felt a little confused but proud I had gone a day without them. 

Today (Sunday) I must admit I have struggled today. It has been very frustrating. I have had a wanting feeling very strong especially in my mouth. I know I do not want a cigarette but I am wanting for something. I have been clenching my teeth very tightly all day. I have been very busy as I have been afraid to stop as each time I did I automatically thought of a cigarette as when I finished a task normally that's what I would have done, but not anymore, I do not desire a cigarette but find this wanting urge and clenching in my mouth very frustrating. I have either eaten or drank all day, trying to satisfy this longing.

 

I know eventually I will find what I am looking for just hope I don't end up too fat in the process. I took your advice and have begun decorating my bathroom, feel a bit obsessive about it. I hope you don't mind me saying this but I feel slightly like I did in the past when on amphetamines. As though I am rushing everything and attacking the chores with a vengeance. It is not easy but I now feel it to be challenging not a chore. Over all I feel very positive and I am surprised at the amount of strength I feel I have gained from our session. 

I would just like to take this opportunity to tell you how grateful I am for your kind help and cannot find words to thank you. If there is anything further I can do for you do not hesitate to ask and if you want more updates say in a week's time or whenever just let me know. I would love to stay in touch. I have ordered the book we were talking about, the one about talking to children, am looking forward to reading it. I found a lot of things we spoke about have made me think differently and I like it. If you can recommend any other readings relating to similar topics or NLP I would be grateful.  I am now going to listen to your tape as I have finished the painting and this letter and deserve to relax. Wishing you all the best.